The Spilling of the Spirit

Deep in sleep, I dreamed the following:

I was at a wedding reception or anniversary party of some kind. I did not recognize anyone, but felt like I belonged there. A band played on a stage for everyone’s enjoyment. I left for a short time to (of all things) remove my bra. I wanted to go home and relax. I stepped back into the building to get one last drink before leaving. The leader of the band approached me and asked me to sing with them. Well, I decided to quickly get a drink and to put my bra back on and then I could sing with the band. I picked up the pitcher of red wine and began to drink. It spilled all over me! Deep red wine stained the front of my shirt and my pants. I sat down right there on the floor and decided I better just get out of there. My clothes were ruined. I didn’t have a bra on. I couldn’t sing in front of all these people in such a condition. All of a sudden an old friend saw me and asked when was I going to get up there to sing. I looked at him in amazement, didn’t he see?! He did, but said it didn’t matter. He encouraged me to hurry, get up there and sing.

I woke up this morning with a question to the Father, “What the heck was that?! What a weird dream!” All day He has been answering my questions about this dream. I’d like to share my thoughts with all of you. He is the giver of dreams.

The wine is the Spirit of the Most High. I am a worship leader. I love to sing songs of worship to my God, Yahweh, and my King, Yeshua. I understand the need to be full of the Spirit before ministering. But lately I’ve been ministering on empty. My life is busy. But I’ll make no excuses. In my dream I wanted a quick drink of the Spirit, but He poured out on me instead. And I couldn’t hide the results. Everyone knew I had been into the wine. I didn’t have just some spots on my clothing, I was soaked up and down. It was obvious. The Father impressed upon me that when the Spirit has been poured out on me, it will show. And I will not be able to hide it. Should I want to?

But, why had I removed my bra? This kinda troubles me. I am a modest person. I never go anywhere without a bra on, for crying out loud! Most psycho analysts say that dreams about appearing nude in public show a fear of being revealed. A fear of being “out there” for everyone to see. Well, yeah…… But why am I afraid to appear “spiritual”? It may also point to the fact that I must relax and not worry about performing and conforming to other’s standards before I will be open to really receive the Spirit in abundance.

There is a disconcerted feeling when life is not controlled. When emotions show up. Wine causes drunkenness. And a drunk person either has little control of their emotions or they just don’t care if they let it all hang out. When a drunk is sad, he sobs. When a drunk is angry, she fights. When a drunk is happy, wow! “Drinks are on the house!” Now, let’s think about stories in the Bible where the Spirit showed up and people could not control their emotions. Samson kicked butt whenever the Spirit came upon him! And Yeshua got out the whip in the Temple, cleaned house! David danced before the Ark of the Covenant in wild abandonment. Hannah prayed with such emotion that Eli thought she was drunk. The people in Jerusalem thought that Peter and those guys were all wasted on Pentecost.

People, we need not be afraid to appear different from the world. It is our goal and calling to be different. Let the oil flow down Aaron’s beard! Let the Spirit make us so conspicuous that others are drawn to us, most persecute us, and we rejoice through it all!

HalleluYah!

Laura